Condemned Lovers: A Marmalade Boy Fanfic
By Yutamiyu


Miki looked in the mirror one last time. In her own eyes she looked so perfect for picking Yuu up at the airport. He had been a way along time in New York and unlike the last time she had no doubts about their love for she knew he loved her more than life itself. But this time he was going to stay in Japan for sure. He was done with his studies and already had a top of the line architectural job in line for him. And Miki was so happy for him, even though she still had a year of school left. He'd be living there with her and she'll see his wonderful gorgeous face every day.

In her long blue dress that she had bought just for him, she looked so much older than when he left. She even had a surprise for him. She had found out that extremely short hair suited her better than long and made her look older than she was. Another secret for him was that she was going to be there picking him up alone. She had just a month ago got ehr driver's license and didn't tell him, for she wanted to keep it a secret. In her mind she knew he'd be so proud of her learning how to drive as fast as she had done.

Yuu, I love you, Miki thought to herself as she left the bathroom and headed out the door to her brand-new red porche her parents had bought for her as a birthday present. On the day she got her card saying she had the right to drive, she arrived home to find the car with a giant blue ribbon sitting in the driveway. Asking her parents who the car was for (a red porche had always been her dream), neither of them said a word until her biological father handed her the keys. Excited as she was at the time she took it for a test drive and zoomed over to Meiko's house to pick her up.

Starting the engine, Miki never felt happier than she was feeling at that moment. Her Yuu just two hours away. And soon he would be in her arms. Happy she pulled out of the drive way, following every law there was singing along with the radio.

At the first stop sign she took at left, then followed the main road up towards the airport. All her mind was on was Yuu and how wonderful he was. Those were her thoughts as she according to law went straight through a green light when a car speeding from the left bashed right into her, making her head bash through the window.

She had no chance to even feel pain at that moment as her life passed before her eyes.

Yuu practically jumped out of his seat once the plane landed and the stewards told them they were allowed taking their seatbelts off. His Miki not too far away. She was there in the same complex as he was. More excited about what he was about to do. Well and nervous too. He was about to propose to her. Thought hey haven't seen each other in four months, his love for her was growing with the pain of not seeing her and he knew that she was the one he wanted to spend the rest of his days with. And her answer would be yes. He knew that she was as in love with him as he was with her. In his last couple of days, he, Jinny and Billy had gone shopping for an engagement ring. They told him that he had needed the nicest one, which would suit her. American tradition.

The thought of seeing his loved ones face waiting for him at the door, Yuu calmly waited his turn to get off the plane. As much as eh wanted to see her, pushing and shoving wouldn't accomplish anything and seeing her was at the top of his thoughts right now. Yet he was calm. Knowing her, she was jumping down with excitement so hyperactive that she was hard to control.

As he walked through the long corridor following the people in front of him, all he could ponder is holding her in his arms for eternity. The only thing standing in his way was the long way through customs and the long wait for his luggage. Then he would see her sparkling face and just be so happy, he would cry. Then prior to leaving the airport he'll do the American way of telling her she's the only one for him by getting down on his hands and knees and telling her he would marry her. In front of everybody at the airport. She'll know then he's always thinking about her. Like the time she had gone all the way to the States just to see him for she thought he had been cheating on her and bla, bla, bla. This time however she had trusted him to go and finish his studies and he was so glad that she had waited for him to return.

In his 10 minute wait for his luggage to appear, his thoughts were not totally fixated on his love, however also on his job that he would be starting in two weeks. And boy was he excited. A couple of months ago Miki had sent in his ideas for buildings to this company and they loved his ideas so much, they wanted him with the help of someone he didn't know the name of to come up with the perfect building for a company. She had been so eager to help him and even though he thought it would never work, she was always there on his side.

His plopped his dark red duffle bag done on the trolley he had unconsciously gotten for himself some where along the lines. His second bag also dark red, however much bigger, was right behind the other bag. It had been Miki's idea to get red suitcases and not many people had them and that why he could make it through easier without any problems of picking up other people bags by accident.

After having both of his bags sitting firmly on the trolley, he followed the memory of the path towards the customs line since he had flown international. Lucky for him as for all the other people they were the only plane, which had landed, so he easily got through customs in no time.

Yuu took a deep breath prior to walking through the gates. How happy he was going to be in seconds to see Miki's face. He passed right through the door looking around to see no familiar faces.

Shocked he looked yet again not to see any person he knew awaiting him. Where's Miki? He thought to himself as he walked on not wanting to block the way for others. Why isn't she here? went through his head as he checked the area out again.

His first instincts brought him to the closest pay phone, where he reached into his bag looking for some change to use it. After finding the correct amount he dialed in his home number thinking she might as well be stuck in traffic or something along those lines.

"Koishikawa-Matsura residence. How can we help you?" the voice on the other line said after three rings.

"Hi Rumi! Where are you guys?"

"Miki isn't there yet?"

"No."

"That's strange, she left over an two hours ago, worried that she would miss you in case your plane landed early."

"She's not here. Plus it's only a 15 minute drive."

"I guess I'll send the men out. I hear there's been some accident no far from the airport, which is really slowing traffic down."

"I'll wait," Yuu said hanging up the phone waiting patiently for his Miki to approach him, wondering why Miki didn't tell him about her being able to drive.

The next phone call had not been more than 5 minutes later. Youji and Jin were already out the door on their way to meet Yuu and hopefully Miki at the airport. This time it had been Chiyako who answered the phone for Rumi was putting together a special snack for Yuu and since well Chiyako couldn't cook very well, she was the one who wasn't busy.

"Konnichiwa. Is this the Koishikawa residence?" an approximately 40-year-old women asked into the phone.

"Yes, this is."

"I have bad news for you. Your daughter has been in an a car accident."

"What?"

"I'm really sorry to say this. Her body is at the hospital and we need for you to come in as fast as possible."

"I'll be there," Chiyako managed to say prior to her tears exploding out. Her own daughter involved in an accident and she wasn't sure about how serious of one either.

Chiyako hung up the phone and dialed her husband's cell phone number. This time he had heard the ring and picked up after four rings.

"Yeah?"

Meet us at the hospital," she managed to say.

"Honey. what's wrong?"

"Miki was in a car accident."

"What?"

"I have to go to the hospital..."

See you there."

Hearing the whole conversation Yumi ran to get her keys and offered to take Chiyako to the hospital. Both women were in shock as they raced to the hospital to see what was going on. All they knew was there had been an accident involving Miki.

Arriving at the hospital Chiyako jumped out of the car and Yumi was to join her after she found a parking spot. Racing into the hospital, she asked the receptionist where Miki was to be found.

"She's in the emergency operating room 2. That's to the left of here. But you're not allowed in."

"Thank you," she said as she raced down the corridor to where the room was. She saw the door was closed and popped herself down into a seat to wait for futher instructions. She was worried about her daughter. The woman on the phone had not told her much about what kind of state her daughter was in. Is Miki just sratch? Is she hurt? Has the worst possible thing happen to her, which her mother didn't want to think about?

A couple of moments later she was joined by Yumi who didn't asked her a question as she sat down next to her. As worried as she was Yumi didn't know of anything she could think of the calm her closest friend down. Saying nothing was probably better than saying something anyway.

Neither woman knew how long they were sitting there for the doctor to come out of the room. The doctor's face was unreadble, however he looked a bit down. As he approached the two women he asked, "Which one of you is Miki's mother?"

"I am," Chiyako said trembling.

"I'm so sorry to be the one to tell you this,.."

"...What I'm about to tell you is really bad news. We never had a chance to save her."

"What?" Chiyako asked, tears pouring like crazy out of her eyes.

"When she got here she had no pulse, her heart had stopped long before the ambulance arrived on the scene."

"Oh my God!" Choyako whispered.

Continuing the doctor said, "Will you come with me, just to make sure that it's your daughter?"

Chiyako followed the doctor into the room appearing a second later out with a pale face. There was no question in Yumi's mind that it had been Miki.

"I'm so sorry," the doctor said apologizing again and again. "According to the police she had gone through a green light and a car doing well over 150 km hit her. She had no chance."

Chiyako couldn't get her mouth to open.

"She died as soon as the other car hit hers. I'm so sorry."

"My baby girl," Chiyako shrieked as she store with blank eyes down the corridor to see Yuu running towards them.

Yuu stoped in his tracks as he say the look on Chiyako's face. He would never forget that look as her hurt eyes pierced through him. He knew something was wrong, as soon as his father told him that Miki had been in a car accident.

"Yuu," Yumi said, watching her son approach.

"Miki?" Yuu cried out.

"I'm really sorry Yuu, they couldn't help her."

Yuu suddenly fell to his knees thinking only about his one true love. "She'll be alright right?"

"Honey, she's gone."

"No, there has to be a mistake!"

"I... saw her pale... face..."

"No, no! It's a mistake!" Yuu cried, almost in tears.

"Yuu..."

"No!" Yuu whispered as he couldn't push the tears back. His Miki the girl he loved dead. 

Gone forever leaving him behind in a cruel world. She was everything for him.
He places his head on his hands as the tears poured out like waterfalls. Never had he felt so much pain as he felt in that moment. Miki wasn't there with him. Her wonderful smile, her hyperactive self, her beautiful face, her life. Never again would he be able to witness her growing up. He needed her, just like she had needed him. He wouldn't be anything without her.

His mind went back to the day his glimpse had first come upon her. He had seen her and instantaneously feel for her. She wasn't like any other girl, she was a girl who brought out the best of him. The moment his eyes had fell on her he knew she was the one for him.
Trying his hardest to pull himself together, he asked the doctor if he could go in and have a look at Miki. Not declining the young man's question, the doctor lead him into the room where Miki was lying.

Not since he had met her had he seen her face so pale, no color at all. She was lying on an operation table surrounded by blood. As much as Yuu didn't want to think it was Miki, he knew it was her. Her blood covered most of her face, however the gently closed eyes, her lips and her hair told him right away it was his Miki lying there covered by blood. Her face had no expression on it, which gave Yuu the impression that she didn't die in pain. There were still chunks of glass going through her forehead and face. One as Yuu could see, went right through her eye.

His eyes, not wanting to believe what they were seeing, moved downwards until he could see the rest of her body, prior to shutting. The doctors had opened her, trying their hardest, which was never hard enough, to get her heart to start to beat again. Failing they had left her open, most probably for a mortician to fix up. Then there was the pile of blood, which she was lying in. All the dark red liquid soaking up in a wonderful blue dress she had on, staining the material permanently.

To him she just looked so fragile, Yuu wanted to touch her, but he couldn't bring himself to do it. She was just lying there without any life in and there was nothing he could do to help her.

"Why?" Yuu cried aloud. "Why?"

The doctor sympathizing with Yuu just put an ram around his shoulder.

"It's all my fault!" Yuu cried.

"No, it's not," the doctor said in a soothing voice.

"Yes! I didn't have to come home at that time! I'..." Yuu wept, however stopped mid sentence for he didn't know what to do.

Yuu's mind finally left blaming himself for the accident and ventured over to the thought of the other driver. That man or woman hopefully suffered a lot! I hope he's dead! Yuu thoguht angrily as he felt his tears roll down the side of his face.

"The other driver... is he dead?" Yuu asked the doctor wanting to hear that he was ripped up into a million pieces and then served to lions, just to make sure he wasn't alive.

"Not more than a scratch, I'm afraid," the doctor said being totally truthful. As a doctor and as a human being he was required not to lie at no matter the cost. It was better for the patient to find out right away and not for people to have been lying to him.

"No! He's supposed to be dead! Look at my Miki!" Yuu complained as the tears poured out of his eyes stronger and heavier than before. His Miki was still lying in front of him with no more strings of life and the person who had caused the accident wasn't even scratch! Life was so unfair! Why did God have to take Miki away from me? Why? Why did Miki have to leave this planet at such an early age? She had so much more life left in her, more dilemmas to face, more goals to achieve... And know all that was left of her was a thin undead pale body covered in blood.

"The other person was drunk and stoned out of his mind without a piece of identification on him," the doctor said. Continuing he added, "I don't know much about what happened, all that I knew is she was the right one."

"No," Yuu whined. "I want my Miki back! Please! Get her heart to beat."

"I'm really sorry, there's nothing we could do about it."

The air of the room made him gag. He felt as if he was already dead. A part of him was. The part more superior of him. His Miki. What he wouldn't do to switch places with her. She was supposed to be the one alive! Happy, smiling and hyperactive as always. Please God make her come back to me! Please let her live her own life again like she was living it before...

By the way, I'm really sorry about mixing up the parents names! While writing the thrid part, I realized that the religion in Japan is somewhat different than catholic, so basically I made Yuu what I understand.

Five days later

Five days had passed since the dreadful day, where God took Miki's life. Five long days which felt more like an eternity to Yuu. He couldn't sleep at night, his eyes felt heavy during his long sleepless day and even though he felt the need to shut them, all he could see is a portrait of the last time he ever saw Miki in front of his eyes. He couldn't bard see her so pale and so lifeless, so he'd make sure his eyes never shut. They were also swollen, red and puffy, from all the tears he had shed since the day. He could not go an hour without having tears stream from his eyes.

His stomach ached from the lack of food. He couldn't eat and rather when he did eat or try to eat his hunger was not there. He picked at his food, feeling something there was no word to describe it. His mind was on Miki, of course: how once when their parents had left them at home for awhile (had it been a weekend?) alone and she had prepared that wonderful romantic meal for his birthday. That day she had planned to cook for him a perfect meal as a birthday present, however as he was about to kiss her, their friends had shown up. She as he hadn't acted that disappointed, however how he was so was she.

Also he recalled all the times she had eaten breakfast with him or prepared it for him. Right after moving in he could remember the morning where she had compared him with marmalade on burnt toast. He had bugged her a lot, teased, rather flirted with her for he loved teasing her and the look she had given him. Oh what he wouldn't give to see that look once again!

At times he'd also sit in her room to cry all to himself. A place where he could hide from all four of his parents who wanted even in their own depression for him to get better and eat and sleep again. They had just wanted for him to cheer up, however he couldn't. His Miki wasn't there to be happy with him.

Today was going to be the day of her funeral. A day, which Yuu would have to leave the house and face the outside world again. He had not seen the sun shine for awhile, nor did he think he would ever see it again. The sun shone for only those who were happy. He hasn't happy. He couldn't be happy. That was life. Life was the great mystery for man kind. If good and evil was even out there, which side was God on? God gave people life as fast as he took life away from them. But why is he good then? Why is he symbolized as good as he evil at the same time? Why did he destroy people who still had their whole lives in front of them?

Why? I can't understand the concept of life! God was the creator of earth. As there is no devil, I've never believed in him but now I'm in doubt. Does he exist? And why is he a stronger figure than God?


"Yuu! Let's go honey!" Yuu heard his mother yell up at him.

Yuu dragged his feet as he slowly walked through the hallway and dragged his feet along the white carpet, never wanting this day to happen. He knew for her soul it was the best thing. She'd finally get to rest in peace.

Yuu also didn't feel like seeing all his old friends either, however once he saw the depressive looks on the face, he knew he wouldn't be able to get away from their "I'm so sorry Yuu about your loss. Is there anything we could do?" He didn't want people to feel depressed for him, he was doing that all on his own. Why should all their lives stop too?
He felt rather selfish looking over at Meiko who had seem to be going through hell the last week too. Miki had not only been his, he would have to remember that.

Walking over to his friends, Yuu did get a lot of hugs showing how deeply they felt for him. He stopped at Miwa, who had also had black rings underneath his eyes.

"Yuu," Miwa started, not knowing what to say.

"Hi, Miwa," Yuu said sounding at the best he could. He knew he could never fool Miwa into ever thinking that he was alright.

The two didn't say anymore as they entered the church. Yuu went right for Miki's casket just to see her again and pay his last respects. He knew but couldn't cope with the fact that this was going to be the last time he would ever see her fragile face.

The mortician did a good job fixing her up. Aside from the paleness she still looked like his Miki wearing a yellow dress, which Yuu could recall his mother and her mother going to buy. Starring at her pale face, the tears poured down again. Yuu bent down and kissed her face.

"Why Miki?" he whispered. "The world is so cruel... Why did you leave me behind like this? Why is it you and not me?"

Yuu could hear a voice in his head, which sounded a lot like Miki's. Yuu, please, don't think like that. Sometimes we go before we're supposed to. It lies in the mysteries of life. God gives you one shot and sometimes it's shorter than it should be."

"Miki! Wake up!" Yuu cried looking at his fallen girlfriend. She was all that matter to him. "Please?"

Miwa put his hand on Yuu's shoulder. Words didn't pour out of his mouth they couldn't. He knew most of the time when to speak and when not to. And had he spoke it would have been something he surely would have regretted afterwards. Actions were sometimes wiser than words.

Yuu bowed his head leaving the casket and went to sit down and tried to listen to waht the priest was saying. He could focus, but the words just swam right by him and his thoughts were much stronger.

A couple of weeks later...

Yuu was sitting on the couch watching tv. He had gotten sleep, but not much and he's eating habits improved, but he still wasn't communicating with anyone. He gave up on the perfect job he had. No regrets in his mind either. All that was on his mind was Miki.
He watched as all around him, his parents, her parents got back into their normal routine, happy as ever, yet all the help they had tried to help him with, wasn't helping him at all. 

She would stay a shadow that lurked around the house.

Suddenly the TV in front of him was turned off. Not that he was watching, he was lost deep in thought.

"Hey!" he said as he noticed Miwa standing, blocking the view.

"Yuu," Miwa started.

"What?"

"I know this has been hard on you, but please snap out of it! You're making it harder for yourself than you have to! Life goes on! That's what she would want!"

"How dare you assume what she wants and doesn't want?" For the first time since the accident Yuu felt his anger rise.

"Because she's my friend too! She's probably looking down at you, unhappy with what you've done to yourself!"

"You have no idea!" Yuu shouted before he jumped at Miwa, who luckily moved his body and Yuu's to the side so they just missed smashing into the television.

"Why you!" Yuu yelled punching Miwa once in the face.

And his fist met Miwa's face again, then his chest. Yet even though being in pain, Miwa wouldn't hit back.

Yuu shook his head, coming back to himself realizing what he did was wrong.

"Miwa! I'm so sorry!" Yuu said getting up and helping his friend to his feet.

"Nothing a few kleenexes couldn't fix," Miwa says.

Not answering, Yuu looked out the window. He saw the sun for the first time since Miki's death and he smiled as his arms wrapped around his friend.

Owari